So here we are. pre-sales on my poetry chapbook have been ongoing for over a month, and the pressure is on.
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It's interesting. This morning, I thought that if I had been asked a couple of months ago what the price or cost of a dream was, I wouldn't have the answer. Today, I do….
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I have twenty-nine days left to sell twenty-nine books. My dream since I was a pre-teen costs a book a day for 29 days or $463.71.
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I hear from people of success, such as John Rzeznik from The Goo Goo Dolls, that it takes a village to market your art. I'm not a salesperson or a fan of marketing, and I've only got myself on my dream team. It can be overwhelming and intimidating. As most of you know, I'd prefer to give every copy away free, as I do with my other books and art— but this time, it's out of my hands, and if I don't bring in sales…well, that's it.
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It wouldn't only disappoint me that it's not in print by a traditional publisher, but it would be disappointing to tell those who have supported me that it won't happen.
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In a meeting earlier, I also discovered that imposter syndrome is real, especially among women. Even for those who give the impression of confidence, and to be honest, I've almost pulled out of this book deal because of the stress it's causing me to prove something to my inner adolescent. But, most of all, because these poems are from a personal, deep, intimate part of me, no one knows. Either from real tales from my life or feelings I've felt stimulated by other storytellers. And it's terrifying to place your heart and everything that makes you, you, on the line for others to judge, but I know it also does something magical.
It helps others see themselves and realize they are not alone. They are not alone in tragedy, feeling broken and not whole. Truths relay messages that lead to the discovery that others can overcome any challenge life throws at them, and there is light, even in the darkness.
And one of the greatest joys in telling your stories and sharing your art is INSPIRING. Inspiring others to free themselves of stories locked inside that need to come out or releasing their inner passion that's being stifled by fear.
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I get it if poetry isn't your thing, but consider the impact these words could have on someone you care about. If you have a friend or family member who could benefit from these words, share them. These poems are not just words on a page but a source of comfort, inspiration, and understanding. Small actions like sharing can create tremendous outcomes, so please bear with me this month while I continue the pursuit of my passion. Because I hope to have the drive in me until the clock stops ticking. At that point, if I have to, I will devise a new plan to fulfill this dream.
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Thank you to all who have been with me on this journey, lifting me daily with your kind words and support. Your belief in me and all artists is what keeps us creating. I am truly grateful for your past support and hope for your continued support while emerging from the cocoon.
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I leave you with a great quote from Anna Mullens and a short poem from this (soon to be printed) collection about the beauty of writers…
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"You can't be an imposter in your own story."
-Anna Mullens


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