Photograph by Monique Rardin Richardson
Who Should Have Come First
by Monique Rardin Richardson
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In an enchanting dark room, we stood surrounded
by nothing but a view of one another and a history spanning decades
To the left, an ex-lover, trying to be a friend
He declared to be in my life until his last breath
But could never be reached when in need of his voice
A man who roamed the earth like the wind,
detached from promises, even ones made to himself
To the right, a dreamer, so full of passion,
he couldn't stay connected because of the "fantasy" affair
taking place in his beautiful self-made garden of Eden
He feared himself if the happiness dissolved,
and me, who he didn't believe he deserved
Straight ahead in the distance, there was a mirror
I pushed the silhouette to the left and watched him
Scatter into pieces and fly away like the seeds of a dandelion
finding a new place, to consume its inner beauty
My hand rested for a beat on the heart of the figure on the right,
then I watched him crumble like a sandcastle slipping away
with the force of the waves on land
and I awoke... and stepped towards myself